Thank you to my bests who made me smile. From simple kisses on the “forehead” as I used your shoulder to shield my tears.. To the effort to make me smile - as I go completely loca on myself.. From the texts saying “I hope you feel better” “I hope this makes you smile” “i love you” “where are you gorgeous?!” etcetc. To the smallest little...
Today was just horrible. I can’t blame anyone for myself to fall for something so stupid. And it continues on, but honestly - there’s no better person to blame but me. I should’ve been smarter. I knew better. It was a stretch. I’m not good enough. I was foolish. It was nothing, it was all in my head. Game over.
Maybe you guys aren't here right now.
But the way you’re talking to me is really making me feel like you just came over with my favorite tub of Ben N Jerry’s and your sole purpose it to make me smile.. Even through this computer screen, as you guys try to make me feel better virtually, I’m already feeling the love. Its pretty powerful, how good best friends can pick you up in an instant. All you need to do is...
I feel like my world just jumbled up for a bit.
Here I am getting comforted by the opposites… I love it though. Just goes to show how much we’ll stand by each other. <3
"A girl like you..."
^ That keeps replaying my head. Negative connotation .
Words are so powerful.
Whether its “he said” / “she said” I love you / I don’t love you I’m moving to ________ I’m leaving you I’m so happy - thanks to _ _ _ &so on the good & bad - the ups & downs. Words can hurt just as much as sticks and stones. So, Lets think twice.
This is an "I told you so," moment.
Let me have it. You were right.
At the dinner table.
I was taken by surprise. My mom and my aunt called me out. They both were quiet, and looked at me , and said, “Nix , you look sad.. And if not sad, then you must be tired.” I faked my way through and told them, “Neither.” Finished my food quickly then left he kitchen. I think every time this happens to me I always tell myself that I dream too big, and I...
Back to square one.
Anonymous asked: youre my girl.
^ unspoken hesitation.
Talking to my famfriend :')
LOL. we stay teasing. How I’ve missed you :)
Get a bucket of water and splash that in my face. Pinch me , I must be dreaming. Do anything- to snap me out of it.
Think about the Lord above, & thank him for the...
Spending time with you today,
was just like a middleschool flash back. Even though we’re still as tight as can be, I’ve missed you guys. And our little spontaneous mall adventure was great. <3
manong: so do you think he likes you?
me: I don't think so , and I don't think he ever will..
manong: well... His loss.
me: =') (hugs tightly) THIS IS WHY WE'RE GOING TO BE BESTFRIENDS FOREVER.
Just made myself a private tumblr.
I feel so free. lol
manong: (texts) Hey, I like that blue top you have on . :)
me: (looks around my house... ) WAIT. LOL. where are you?
manong: Lol, on my couch.. Why? Creeper...
me: waaaait. how did you know I'm wearing a blue top? HAHA. WHAT?
manong: Lol, well I just guessed :) .....
&they always tell me, "Stay sweet."
forever shall I live up to that.. Even though I put you up in the spot boyfriend, seeing your smile and reaction made me smile just as big :) & now I should sleep happily. sweet dreams everyone!
neverrlosehope asked: NIKKI I AM DYING OF CUTENESS. that video was seriously so adorable i am awwwwwing so hard right now<3 ahah(:
philfuster asked: Friend, in the end it is all up to you. If you feel it isn't the right decision then don't do it. You'll still be my beloved friend. :] So don't worry about it. Ok? :D
I can't read you.
I can’t read you & your thoughts. Your words separate from your true emotions. You’re a lot trickier than you think. It’s all rushing through my head. But in yours, you don’t know a thaaang. And you never will. I got my poker face on , I’ll stay smiling now.. But deep inside, it’s getting to me..
Everybody just have a good time.
I think that’s what I’ve been missing. For awhile , school work has been taking over my life . Everyday , I had some sort of challenge to overcome— and each week I’d lose sleep or feel weak.. That’s , that. I’ve been busy. I’ve been lacking a little bit of joy. But it’s all turning around. I know where I stand with them, and I know where I stand with...
I guess, I'll do the best I can.
And if I fail, I’ll know that it wasn’t because I didn’t work hard enough, nor was it because there’s something wrong with me, but rather- just because its wrong timing, wrong placement, and maybe - just not meant to even be, But if I walk away with all that, if I walk away knowing I did all I could, then the fault no longer rests in my hands, but in the simple signs of...
complicait asked: when you come to ramapo if you get the chance you should take multicultural psych with heinze. it's one of the best classes i've ever taken (just saying cause I always see you post about that club:) )
xanthonycastro: Have you ever liked someone but didn’t know what to do about it?