March 2012
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Private tumblr.
I’m about to start writing more and more in it as opposed to here, and only those who know the password will be able to view it.
I really would like to explain myself more to you and what’s been going on with me, but you shouldn’t of assumed and I’ll just leave at that.
sort of kinda, really, frustrated.
February 2012
I am frantically losing my cool with all this pressure for tmrw. How am I stressing so much when its senior year??
Its just one of those weeks.
I’m getting annoyed because you keep making me do things that aren’t benefiting you. I understand a favor or two.. But without you constantly stimulating your brain, its showing that its failing you. Its making me frustrated when I see you forget. Its making me mad when I see you talk to me, and then midsentence, you don’t even remember what you’re saying in the first...
"Before you came into my life, I missed you so...
“Love isn’t about ridiculous little words. Love is about grand gestures. Love is...”
– Little Manhattan (via 63426642653)
Stop lying to me because the truth will find me whether I’m looking for it or not. I don’t appreciate you faking any of these emotions. Just be real.
Games are just games; til’ someone gets hurt.
Its happening again.
time to distance myself.
This whole week, you’ve been weird. A lot of people have been saying you didn’t look too good.. And I agreed. You wouldn’t open up. And thats completely ok, I get it. But I just needed you to know I’d be there.. Now , we’re losing it. We’re barely talking and soon enough, we’ll be strangers again…
That was the last thing I wanted.. but unfortunately, its happening and I miss your presence.
I like deep conversations.
ayeeitsjulia:
The ones where you can just sit down with one of your close friends and completely spill out your thoughts/feelings. Like how you’re doing, what may be currently bothering you, what’s stressing you out, etc. And the best part, getting feedback or advice from that person you’re talking to that might actually understand what you’re going through. It makes me feel less alone, and...
“Kapag nanligaw ako at dumating sa point na. I want a girl to be my girlfriend,...”
– Xian Lim and his outlook on relationships ♥ (via ksychiu)
Have it all.
Underneath the way I carry myself, there’s alot more struggle inside than I make visible. Today, almost every weekend, almost 60% of the time. I wake up to an empty house. No one to greet you in the morning. No one cooking breakfast. No warmth… And its been this way for awhile. Ever since I was little the majority of my childhood was spent at my Grandma’s house. She was the only...
-markdavid asked: boss ! your debit card number !
We did it.
Yesterday was the first day in this four month sequence in which we didn’t talk to each other or acknowledge each other at all. It was almost as if you and I haven’t progressed in any way & this is how we’ve remained. I know you’ve asked for “time”.. And I know you don’t really need me .But I am so so worried about you, its crazy. I wish you could tell...
Waking up in the morning and feeling so angry is not good at all.. I am so sorry tumblrheads for all this anger.. I shall pull myself together.
Negative energy is infectious.
When you surround yourself with people who are negative, chances are - you will soon enough catch their cold..
Try your utmost hardest to steer away from bad company because you may find yourself doing things you’ve never done..
“Never do something permanently stupid just because you are temporarily upset.”
Say you don’t give a damn, and I won’t stay.
But if you feel the same way that I feel, you gotta show it, because I need to know it.
Don't get my wrong though,
I love everything we have right now and more.
DropNharmony - 6th day medley
Nothing takes me back, like this song. Its a bittersweet emotion I get when I listen to it. I guess I remember the little things a lot more often than you do, but its kind of annoying. This song is the perfect lullaby. And since I’ve been having trouble sleeping for the past two weeks, I’ve resulted to listening to this. I feel like this song explains almost every little part of us. In...
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I told you from the very start, I’m not the type to leave anyone.
But somehow, not many people stick around for that long anyways.
I understand you “leaving”..
you need your space.
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Teared at the sight of his pain.
God, I am not worthy to be this blessed.
“Anyone who seeks truth seeks God, whether or not he realizes it.”
– St. Edith Stein
Through it all.
Say it ain’t so.
I don’t think anyone wants to face the truth. I don’t think the three of us could handle hearing that the genes have carried on.. I don’t think we’re ready to realize, there’s nothing more we can do, but enjoy your healthy condtion now- while it lasts.. That scares me. And what scares me even more is that I know I’ll be a mess if all the...
At night, I get a daily shot of Keith and its been going on for the past two weeks.. But today, its bad. I almost forgot how it felt to feel this sick. To feel as if I’m gasping for air, but I can’t manage to take it in. To have that difficulty of simple functions like swallowing or breathing. To have my heart beat fast & my head pound to the same rhythm.. I’m losing...
And just like that, you disappeared.
Revert.
I wish I could be there for you in a way that will inspire you the way I did before.. I can’t do it now without giving off the wrong impression, but if only you knew how much I care for you, and how much I can’t stand seeing you ‘hurt’ yourself in such a way. It’s not the answer. There are better ways to get back up. But, I understand you lived a different life before...
