I wish I could be there for you in a way that will inspire you the way I did before.. I can’t do it now without giving off the wrong impression, but if only you knew how much I care for you, and how much I can’t stand seeing you ‘hurt’ yourself in such a way. It’s not the answer. There are better ways to get back up. But, I understand you lived a different life before you met me. I can’t tell whether or not you said all those things to me because you truly wanted me to be “proud of you.” or, if it was all just some sort of a mask to get me to stay.. Whatever the reason, I ignited some sort of fire within you. A good flame, that kept you under a certain condition for “however” long you can say… And even though you love doing that stuff, you felt enough for me to give it up for awhile.. And I applaud you for that. But just because I’m not so prominent in your life anymore. Just because I don’t play that leading role, it doesn’t mean you have to drop the good & revert back’… Take my “moment of impact”, and keep it. Or think about it, and let it teach you some sort of lesson. I know its not my style. I know I’m some sort of goody “two shoes”, but I do know that eventually that stuff can hurt you. And honestly, I can’t stand the fact . I can’t sit around any longer and think about all of that because I can’t help but take some sort of the blame..
I want to be there for you, but I can feel you push me away.
I want to put the quote, “Save you, from yourself,” to use- but who am I to even step in like that?
I want to let you know that you got so many people who care/love you, &we can give you that natural feeling.
Please..
remember.
